25 December 2010


As I woke up this morning to a phone call from a close and dear friend, my the negative thoughts started to invade my mind. They were giving me a million reasons why it would great to just stay in bed and sleep the day away. I had made these plans three days ago, but it took exerted force to get me to stay committed to the days agenda.

Little did I know, the weather outside was hugging my mood receptors for dear life. Weather induced depression. BLAH! I hadn't even heard the rain, seen the dreariness of the sky, or even felt the cold wind, but somehow my body knew and it conspired with then weather to keep me down.

I finally pulled myself away from my clingy sheets approximately ten minutes before my ride was scheduled to arrive. I threw on some jeans, a silly t-shirt, socks, and shoes. Then I grabbed my brown zip up hoody and bag before leaving comfort bubble I call home.

On the open highway we drove an hour to find something to eat and catch up with the things we have going on in ours lives. After we ate, we drove around sightseeing and discussing random topics that popped into our minds and rushed through our lips. We ended our day visiting her family. The day was great!

I almost can't understand why I wanted to stay home in the first place. Its like there is a deeper force out there trying to keep me unhappy. I refuse to let it have full control over me.

Although my life isn't perfect, I am still content with the way things are falling in and out of place. Some of you may be disappointed in me, while others are cheering me while I lose the marathon I was trying to run. I can not say I don't care because I'd be lying, but it won't stop me from being who I am.

Something important in life is to know it is okay to obtain individuality. If you are all trying to fit in with other people, then you will be unhappy.

Draw close to God, and become his friend. Even when no one else understands who you are, he will. He is the best friend you can have. He wants you to be yourself and love him. He loves you.

This has been Marcy Jenson, and my advice for you today is to simply be yourself. Let yourself shine. Don't be afraid. God does love you. He made us all different and gave us free will for a reason. :)

22 December 2010

Mo[u]rning Gory

All my days start off on about the same note. At the very moment my deep slumber evicts me and I start to gain awareness of reality, I beg for my dreams to accept me back with open arms. When it rejects me, I check my energy levels which is rarely a full charge. I linger around in bed hoping the royalty in dreamland will realize they have made a mistake and call me back. They rarely do, so I reluctantly crawl out of bed and prepare for my day.

I am sure I am not alone in my dread for waking up each day and avoid going out and venture out into the day's journey. We don't have to let it stop us though. If we fight against what is holding us back, we can and will accomplish everything we have on our agenda. We will not only have a to do list completed, but we will also have a heart filled with goodness knowing we won today's battle. The war may not be over, but we will fill a little more confident for the new journey we will have to walk through the following day.

So let us take our troubles head on, and show ourselves we do have what it takes to live in this world. We are just as important as the next person; and without us, some in the world would not be right. Although we tend to feel we do not belong, our existence is very important to society.

Until next time, this has been Marcy Jenson telling you to keep your head held high.

Have a great day!

21 December 2010

Let Me Introduce Myself

I am your typical everyday young woman who loves to watch movies, listen to music, hang out with friends, and gossip about anything and everything possible. I have a huge family and many friends who have my back, and I love them for that. All those people also know that I would, likewise, take a bullet for them.

I also tend to look very bubbly on the outside, especially when I am with these people I mentioned above. Many people take that to mean that everything is great in my life. Of course, they are right to assume that is the case. I mean; I have employment, a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in at night, food in my cupboards, and an endless stream of people who love and care about ME. I likewise care about them. I am usually the shoulder for them to cry on, the friend they have when they need me there.

Although, if you look deeply behind my eyes, you will find that I am not as stable as I seem to portray on the outside. I am fragile and weak, but I make it a point to live every day to the fullest. I have many fears I must fight each day, but I still find a way to smile.

This blog is to show people like me who are out there, that you are not alone, and although sometimes you may be too fatigue to make lemonade with those lemons being thrown at you. You can still cut them into crescents, sprinkle some sugar atop, and make a sweet snack with them anyways.

Until next time, I am Marcy Jenson telling you to keep that smile on your face. Life will get better, or at least thats what I tell myself.