26 March 2012

A Wish for Someone Like You

All you romantics will love this, all you anti-love fans will hate it. Some of you will not understand my analogies, some of you will. This is for Michael. My prince. My love. My Mikey. Thank you, Honey for being there even through my roughest moments. I know it isn't easy. I have a long road ahead of me, but you have put me back on the right one. I was too far gone down the other one. Thank you for lifting me up and placing me back on my path to sanity.

We are young
Our future is bright
Thoughts of our love
Gets me through each night

Far away or by my side
Forever your arms are my home
As long as you allow
There is where I'll reside

I've wrote about you once before
Just a hope and a dream to walk through my door

I've searched high and low for this poem, You see
This poem was a wish for you to be sent to me

Morbid it was
Dark, Scary, and Cold
But somewhere inside was the hope I did hold

Hope for someone like you
To love someone like me
To understand my flaws
Ones the world do see
Have deeper meaning

I hope I'm not wrong in the way the I feel
But the love I have for you has moved me to makes the steps that I must
To finally close my wounds and allow them to heal

Young Roller Coaster Love

Inspiration has set in and I will use all my engery to write these creative passages. When life gives me lemons, I will find a way to use the juice as ink. It may be a very light and bright color, but I believe that is the best part!

I'm here tonight with a story to tell
Of a boy and a girl and how in love they fell

It all started out with a day gone bad
For the girl who was feeling nothing but sad

Her bestie was there with the runaway car
But these girls had no means to run very far

They stayed up all night giggling away tears
Hoping the laughs would chase away fears

This girl had a phone and other people who cared
She vented all out; her problems she shared

On the other end of that phone someone found the problems alarming
Who would've thought, He'd be her prince charming

Not a Knight, Not a fool
Not in armour, Not in foil
A Prince, I do say
Indeed I mean royal

The charmer with words she needed to hear
The support and the care was all just so near

The friend with the car that couldn't take her far
Had places to go leaving this girl feeling bizzarre

Not ready for home
And a prince in her hands
She asked for a rescue
She had a plan

Prince charming agreed to show up with a sword
Hoping her pain would be no more

Prince charming was unaware of the issues at hand
But he stepped to the plate
His heart was so grand

Not wanting to push
Not wanting to shove
Only wanting one thing
That thing was love

She let him in deeper than anyone before
She left her dirty laundry all over the floor

Pointing out all her flaws and why she thinks no one will care
But he ensured this young girl that he would be there

The deeper she fell
The more she let go
Control was all gone
The flaws she first mentioned were starting to show

Prince charming still stood by his word by sticking it through
He boarded a very tough ride
Boy, if he only knew

The girl unknowingly started to damage
The heart of a prince and he hoped he could manage

Finally realizing the control she had lost
Young girl told herself she was the boss

Not the boss of the prince
Oh, no not indeed
But the boss of herself and the way she'd proceed

Trying hard to turn it all around
Young girl relies on all she has found

Sorries, Thank yous
Begging and Pleading
For the Prince to understand 
Her heart was now bleeding

Young girl knew the pain she had cause
Left is distress and wanting to pause

"Pause my life, Dear God," she pleaded
"I need to make things right with the ones that I needed"

"I needed them then and I still need them now
I want the control but I just don't know how"

No sudden response was sent to the girl
But the knowledge she holds was beginning to swirl

She figured out what to do to make things right
To dry her new tears
And sleep through the night

She made calls
She made mends
She did what she could
To turn it all around the way that she should

There is no end to this story because this couple is still making it through
Young girl is turning back to all the things she already knew

Prince charming is still there holding her hand
Despite all things
He is still her loving man

Even with all said and done
And even some parting still pending
They'll have to admit 
This is merely the beginning

13 March 2012

A Blast from Your Lemons Past

Hey, guys and gals! It's been a few months since my last post. Life has definitely thrown me some major curve balls that I hadn't expected. However, that didn't stop me from walking to the plate to bat each and every time. Of course, I might not have the best hand eye coordination, but getting hit by the ball still allows you to walk to first base. 

So, where to I begin? I have learned so much in the many adventures I traveled through between my last post and now. Guess I'll just go where my fingers take me.

Here it goes.

When life gives you lemons, DO NOT put vodka in your lemonade! Of course it makes it all fun and fantastic for the first few parties, but you aren't handling the situation. You are avoiding it. Which, in the long run, will come back to bite you in the ass! Trust me, I know from experience. It makes life all hazy from one moment to the next. Everything is great because your problem has been tossed to the side. But let me tell you something, honey, when you run out of vodka and start sobering up. Your troubles are still there giving you the death stare because you need to FIX the problem. You can only drink it away the memory of the issues, but they never leave. They only become invisible to your beer goggles.

There are many other great things you can do with those lemons, though. Lemons are sour, but if you add a little sugar they are extremely tasty. There's always lemonade, lemon cookies, lemon meringue pie, lemon iced tea, etc. All things that are handling the situation in a positive light, not running away from the problem altogether. Share these lemons with someone you trust if you must to help you get through it. You can get through any obstacle thrown in your path because God does not give us more than we can handle. If you are feeling overwhelmed. Remember that God thinks you have the strength, wisdom, and courage to get through the problems you are facing today. The lemons are their for you to make sweet treats and beverages with them to share with the best friend you and getting the aid from, to increase your stamina and will power. Lemons are a great source of vitamin C that helps build up your immune system. So it makes sense when life throws you lemons. You need to build up your figurative immune system.

Also, live your life for today. I know that I am guilty for this as well as the next person, but we CANNOT change the past. We have NO WAY TO KNOW what tomorrow holds. So, why not live for today. Take steps to heal past wounds. Find closure however you must, but please move on. I know from experience how difficult it is to move on from past events that may have scarred you, but the only person suffering from those memories you are holding onto with so much hatred is yourself. I am sorry, darlings, but you can't change it. And allowing it to continue hurting you today isn't only affecting you, but the people you love. Trust me, it won't be easy. The first step is to figuring out the source of what is causing your agony. Then, confront the issue head on. Meaning you have to mentally revisit the event that is causing you such dismay in your present time. If there is a person you can talk to, a place you can visit, anything that would trigger the full memory and allow you to let out all the grief and emotion you have been holding in for all this time then go find it. Visit the place, talk to the person let them know exactly how you feel. Nine out of ten, they know they've done wrong. Maybe they are sorry. Maybe they are not sorry. Forgive them anyways. Let it go. I know you will probably always remember, but you can't let it hurt you anymore. As tragic as you past may have been, it is what made you who you are today. The strong, beautiful man or woman walking around the stores and streets everyday with a huge smile upon your face hiding the tender scars you are hiding behind your beautiful eyes.

If you can do that, you will cross over a huge canyon in your life that was holding you back from living in the moment. However, don't jump from yesterday straight into tomorrow. Pace yourself. We are only granted today. Tomorrow isn't promised to us. You can still dream, but don't let it overpower you and become all you're living for because if you do, you've lost today to tomorrow.

The videos below are some songs that played through my head while typing today's post.

You have come a long way just by looking up and researching self-help advice. I believe in you. You should, too. Until next time, this was Marcy Jenson advising you to find your inner peace. You can defeat the beast inside.